That’s what I thought…
It was supposed to be a reassuring scan, our second by Dr Z and our third since the positive result.
But the scan didn’t start that way.
I managed to leave work by 12 so I could get home to pick up E. Our second scan with Dr Z was due at 1pm and I had to be back at work by 3.30pm. I had a long day today and would be finishing by 8pm.
We told Dr Z about the reassurance scan we’d been to on the previous Saturday. I mentioned the size mentioned on the reassurance scan and the concerns about the smaller twin.
Dr Z zoned in on the smaller twin first. I heard her say a few things: ‘blood in the sac’, ‘small foetus size for dates’ and ‘prominent vessels’. Then quiet. Nothing mentioned about the other twin- the bigger one. Dr Z continued to say not much and moved the internal scan within.
I became worried. Felt sick. Felt the blood drain from me. Looked at E and Dr Z. Was she about to break some bad news? Was it all over? I tried to imagine how devastated E would be.
But then Dr Z moved the probe and saw the other twin. It looked bigger and I could see a heart beat. 🙌😅
Dr Z finally said something.
It was probably only 5 minutes but it felt like an hour.
She said twin 1 was doing well, was approximately 16mm and mentioned seeing a head. Sadly twin 2 had no heart beat and had not likely grown any further- it was still 6w1d in size.
E burst out crying and I felt like I wanted to cry too but just gasped.
Dr Z decided that a scan by the Early Pregnancy Unit (EPU) the next day or so would be helpful as the hospital scanners are more detailed. She was convinced that E would carry this singleton to term.
We both left the hospital in shock. Happy and sad at the same time. We had lost a twin and had a singleton now. A singleton would be a lower risk pregnancy compared to twins. E was happy for the singleton but E still felt anxious about the twinges and was told to expect potential blood loss if the smaller foetus miscarried, although it could be reabsorbed instead.
It took me a few hours to settle down as my heart was racing and head felt foggy. I went back to work and tried to get on with the rest of my working day, but finished later than expected due to admin work. E said the twinges had continued, but there was no further smudging thankfully.
The next day E tried to contact the EPU to get an appointment that day but they said it wasn’t possible. (Generally patients are referred by a doctor a day or two before. Surely Dr Z should have known that!).
E told me later that she spoke to a lovely and friendly midwife over the phone and has been booked in for a scan on Monday. Encouragingly the midwife said that E had got past two big milestones: 5 weeks and 8 weeks and once she got to 12 weeks, she would be in a safer zone.
A scan on Monday and then a couple more reassurance scans is what we’ll likely do!
So we have just under 4 weeks to go.
Feels like an eternity!