It’s been a crap day today.
E went for her scan and we were hoping the continued down regulation (about 5 weeks now) would result in the necessary end point ie menopause, but no, that was not what happened.
E was told her follies were getting bigger and her womb lining was getting thicker. The ‘nice nurse who knew her well’ proceeded to tell her it was strange to not respond to the nasal spray and it was most unusual. That comment did not help.
E was gutted by the news and as was I when I spoke to her. She said she cried on the way home. I SO WANTED to have been with her and console her, but couldn’t get home due to the busy work day.
I just feel powerless.
As a GP and a doctor of 10 years, I can’t do anything to make this fertility journey any easier medically wise. NHS fertility services are slow, nurse led and feels robotic and chaotic.
Sometimes I wish I was just a regular layman with no medical knowledge to cloud my thoughts and feelings.
I’m anxious to see how E is especially as she’s been at a work event all evening and although I know she’s held it together, I’m sure she is heartbroken.
Now just have to wait and see what the plan is next, but feel we might have to take the hit and go private, hoping for better fertility care.